I had never had a panic attack before Oscar. If you have never had one, I will try to explain what they feel like to me. To me, it feels like I have lost control of my body and it is a conscious challenge to regain that control. I have experienced several. The last oneContinue reading “Entry Forty Three- Panic Attacks”
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Entry Forty Two- I Encourage You To Write
I used to speak to my social worker weekly, then biweekly, and I now probably every other month. I still cry for varying lengths of time during every session but I do feel lighter after, like a bit of my worry is gone. “Silence reinforces the godforsaken isolation of trauma” (Bessel Van Der Kolk) IContinue reading “Entry Forty Two- I Encourage You To Write”
Entry Forty One- Humbled
It is so easy for me to sit in my own worries. I am humbled as I learn of other people’s experiences. I went to the hospital for an outpatient neurology visit last week. At this time, I truly have nothing to complain about. Oscar has been developing in a really positive trajectory and weContinue reading “Entry Forty One- Humbled”
Entry Thirty Nine- Start Where You Are
“Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.” – Arthur Ashe Nobody starts off in the same place. And nobody finishes at the same destination. My son has a genetic deletion meaning that he is missing genetic information. He didn’t get to start his little life at the same place asContinue reading “Entry Thirty Nine- Start Where You Are”
Entry Thirty Seven- A Beautiful Story
In April of 2019 my son was taken via ambulance to the closest pediatric hospital because he was having difficulty breathing. He was 6 months old at that time. It felt like things were spiraling out of control that day. I remember that I had taken him to the walk-in clinic because he seemed toContinue reading “Entry Thirty Seven- A Beautiful Story”
Entry Four- Hats
When I was sick with cancer as a child I lost my hair due to chemotherapy. I had a hat. I think my Aunt Janet had given me this hat. For whatever reason it was the only hat I wore for months until my hair grew back. It was literally my security blanket. When peopleContinue reading “Entry Four- Hats”
A Real Mom Story on Raising a "Special" Family 