Entry Sixty Seven- It Has Been A While

Time sometimes just goes. I love writing my blog. It is one of the things I do that is just for me. And of course when life gets busy, the first thing most people do (or is it just a mom thing?) is that you stop doing things for yourself. I decided to write todayContinue reading “Entry Sixty Seven- It Has Been A While”

Entry Sixty Six- One Line A Day

When my daughter was born I bought a book called, “One Line A Day.” It is a five year memory book and the intention of the book is to write one sentence daily. Every day for 5 years I wrote a sentence about my daughter. Things we did, funny things she said and all ofContinue reading “Entry Sixty Six- One Line A Day”

Entry Sixty Four- Chronic Stress

Being totally transparent, I went back on anxiety medication. I slowly realized that I was no longer feeling like myself and that I wanted to feel better. I don’t feel stigmatized by having to take medication, but maybe subconsciously I had prided myself on being able to manage my anxiety with exercise, writing, and therapyContinue reading “Entry Sixty Four- Chronic Stress”

Entry Sixty Three- “Fix You”

“When you try your best, but you don’t succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something, you can’t replace When you love someone, but it goes toContinue reading “Entry Sixty Three- “Fix You””

Entry Sixty Two- “Interesting”

I have thought about that pediatric neurologist a lot since we left her office that day. I have thought about why she would have selected that particular field of medicine given her seemingly lack of compassion or consideration for her patients and their families. (For Reference see Entry Fifty Nine- Feeling Acknowledged). It didn’t makeContinue reading “Entry Sixty Two- “Interesting””

Entry Sixty One- He’s Cute, Right?

My son… he’s cute, right? I am his mom and probably a little biased, but he is cute, right? He has the most beautiful blue eyes and his sweet little smile can truly light up a room. It isn’t only me who thinks so…“He is so sweet I could work with him all day” ourContinue reading “Entry Sixty One- He’s Cute, Right?”

Entry Sixty- Same Worries, Different Circumstance

I can’t help but think of that woman I saw on the beach… The woman who was wearing the large sunhat that covered her perfectly bald head. (Entry Fifty Six- Acknowledgement) I had a therapy appointment a couple of weeks ago and I mentioned that interaction to my social worker. I became just as emotionalContinue reading “Entry Sixty- Same Worries, Different Circumstance”

Entry Fifty Eight- Leave The Safe

“Leave the safe, explore the new, return to the safe…” (What Happened To You? By Bruce D. Perry and Oprah Winfrey) About two years ago I started therapy. I was a mess. I can still remember my mom telling me that I looked like I was on the verge of tears all of the time.Continue reading “Entry Fifty Eight- Leave The Safe”

Entry Fifty Five- Support Groups

After Oscar was first diagnosed, I was made aware of several different support groups relevant to our new situation. My parents eagerly joined these groups. I was a lot more hesitant. Perhaps I was in denial… By the time Oscar was 4months old we had been through a lot and had learned of both ofContinue reading “Entry Fifty Five- Support Groups”

Entry Fifty Three- An Analogy

Consider a fire at an elementary school. A veteran firefighter can walk right up to the flames and put them out, business as usual. In contrast, a first-grader witnessing his classroom burst into flames will experience minutes of intense fear, confusion and helplessness….a fifth grader in a different part of the building didn’t feel asContinue reading “Entry Fifty Three- An Analogy”