Entry Sixty Six- One Line A Day

When my daughter was born I bought a book called, “One Line A Day.” It is a five year memory book and the intention of the book is to write one sentence daily. Every day for 5 years I wrote a sentence about my daughter. Things we did, funny things she said and all ofContinue reading “Entry Sixty Six- One Line A Day”

Entry Sixty Four- Chronic Stress

Being totally transparent, I went back on anxiety medication. I slowly realized that I was no longer feeling like myself and that I wanted to feel better. I don’t feel stigmatized by having to take medication, but maybe subconsciously I had prided myself on being able to manage my anxiety with exercise, writing, and therapyContinue reading “Entry Sixty Four- Chronic Stress”

Entry Sixty Three- “Fix You”

“When you try your best, but you don’t succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something, you can’t replace When you love someone, but it goes toContinue reading “Entry Sixty Three- “Fix You””

Entry Sixty One- He’s Cute, Right?

My son… he’s cute, right? I am his mom and probably a little biased, but he is cute, right? He has the most beautiful blue eyes and his sweet little smile can truly light up a room. It isn’t only me who thinks so…“He is so sweet I could work with him all day” ourContinue reading “Entry Sixty One- He’s Cute, Right?”

Entry Fifty Eight- Leave The Safe

“Leave the safe, explore the new, return to the safe…” (What Happened To You? By Bruce D. Perry and Oprah Winfrey) About two years ago I started therapy. I was a mess. I can still remember my mom telling me that I looked like I was on the verge of tears all of the time.Continue reading “Entry Fifty Eight- Leave The Safe”

Entry Fifty Six- Acknowledgement

We went to the beach today. I was with my kids in the water when I heard a familiar voice asking my husband a question about our beach tent. I turned and looked and didn’t immediately recognize the woman. But I did notice her perfect bald head hidden by a large sunhat. It took meContinue reading “Entry Fifty Six- Acknowledgement”

Entry Fifty Five- Support Groups

After Oscar was first diagnosed, I was made aware of several different support groups relevant to our new situation. My parents eagerly joined these groups. I was a lot more hesitant. Perhaps I was in denial… By the time Oscar was 4months old we had been through a lot and had learned of both ofContinue reading “Entry Fifty Five- Support Groups”

Entry Fifty Three- An Analogy

Consider a fire at an elementary school. A veteran firefighter can walk right up to the flames and put them out, business as usual. In contrast, a first-grader witnessing his classroom burst into flames will experience minutes of intense fear, confusion and helplessness….a fifth grader in a different part of the building didn’t feel asContinue reading “Entry Fifty Three- An Analogy”

Entry Fifty One- Sunday

That quintessential lazy Sunday morning we almost never experience as a family because my husband is usually at work. This past Sunday was different, my husband was home and we all stayed in our pyjamas until almost 10:00am! We started the morning with a nice breakfast and then Olivia was asking to see some picturesContinue reading “Entry Fifty One- Sunday”

Entry Fifty – Stories

I think we all tell stories. We want to have control of our own narrative. The stories we choose to tell are the stories we want believed by others and by ourselves. “One system creates a story for public consumption, and if we tell that story often enough, we are likely to start believing thatContinue reading “Entry Fifty – Stories”