Entry Sixty Five- Three

Happy Third Birthday Oscar! This time last year Oscar was pulling up to stand, standing independently at a horizontal surface and was working on transitioning between surfaces. I remember asking Oscar’s physiotherapist when she thought Oscar would be walking independently? She said that most kids who have difficulties with motor planning typically are not walkingContinue reading “Entry Sixty Five- Three”

Entry Sixty Four- Chronic Stress

Being totally transparent, I went back on anxiety medication. I slowly realized that I was no longer feeling like myself and that I wanted to feel better. I don’t feel stigmatized by having to take medication, but maybe subconsciously I had prided myself on being able to manage my anxiety with exercise, writing, and therapyContinue reading “Entry Sixty Four- Chronic Stress”

Entry Sixty Two- “Interesting”

I have thought about that pediatric neurologist a lot since we left her office that day. I have thought about why she would have selected that particular field of medicine given her seemingly lack of compassion or consideration for her patients and their families. (For Reference see Entry Fifty Nine- Feeling Acknowledged). It didn’t makeContinue reading “Entry Sixty Two- “Interesting””

Entry Sixty One- He’s Cute, Right?

My son… he’s cute, right? I am his mom and probably a little biased, but he is cute, right? He has the most beautiful blue eyes and his sweet little smile can truly light up a room. It isn’t only me who thinks so…“He is so sweet I could work with him all day” ourContinue reading “Entry Sixty One- He’s Cute, Right?”

Entry Sixty- Same Worries, Different Circumstance

I can’t help but think of that woman I saw on the beach… The woman who was wearing the large sunhat that covered her perfectly bald head. (Entry Fifty Six- Acknowledgement) I had a therapy appointment a couple of weeks ago and I mentioned that interaction to my social worker. I became just as emotionalContinue reading “Entry Sixty- Same Worries, Different Circumstance”

Entry Fifty Nine- Feeling Acknowledged

I am not sure if I shared that Oscar was discharged from neurology at The Hospital for Sick Children and referred to a community pediatric neurologist. Although it was (is) tough leaving the security blanket of the Children’s Hospital, it is great news that Oscar is currently not as “worrisome” to neurology as he onceContinue reading “Entry Fifty Nine- Feeling Acknowledged”

Entry Fifty Eight- Leave The Safe

“Leave the safe, explore the new, return to the safe…” (What Happened To You? By Bruce D. Perry and Oprah Winfrey) About two years ago I started therapy. I was a mess. I can still remember my mom telling me that I looked like I was on the verge of tears all of the time.Continue reading “Entry Fifty Eight- Leave The Safe”

Entry Fifty Six- Acknowledgement

We went to the beach today. I was with my kids in the water when I heard a familiar voice asking my husband a question about our beach tent. I turned and looked and didn’t immediately recognize the woman. But I did notice her perfect bald head hidden by a large sunhat. It took meContinue reading “Entry Fifty Six- Acknowledgement”

Entry Fifty Three- An Analogy

Consider a fire at an elementary school. A veteran firefighter can walk right up to the flames and put them out, business as usual. In contrast, a first-grader witnessing his classroom burst into flames will experience minutes of intense fear, confusion and helplessness….a fifth grader in a different part of the building didn’t feel asContinue reading “Entry Fifty Three- An Analogy”

Entry Fifty Two- Not Every Mother

Not every woman wants to be a mother. Not every woman who wants to be a mother is able to be a mother. Not every mother feels comfortable celebrating her pregnancy because her pregnancy is filled with worry. Not every mother is able to carry her child for 9 months. Not every mother is ableContinue reading “Entry Fifty Two- Not Every Mother”